Flaws.

I have one particular flaw that gets me into depression trouble time and time again. It has caused many many problems for me when it comes to dealing with others because it causes me to resent them unintentionally for views of me that I don't understand. That particular flaw however; is a good one to exploit in this particular instance and that is my bad habit of gaining my sense of personal worth from what other people think...or may think of me. Even at times when no one is out there thinking badly about me I always wonder if they are. To that effect I intend to use this blog in part to track my adhesion to my set goals list. Thankfully most of these goals are goals that do not cost money and so lack of funds does not stand in my way when it comes to completing most of them. With one of them I stand to actually gain money and that is my goal to wean myself off of cigarettes. Eventually I will do what I can to get rid of my need of other peoples shining approval to make myself feel worth anything at all, but for now, I'll focus on these things and use that flaw to its best advantage. Wish me luck. Not like I have any readers other than my husband who loves me just the way I am, but for a moment I will pretend that there are others out there who give a damn whether or not I succeed.