Long time gone

Sorry I've been gone for so long, its been...something else. Getting ready to have an apartment of our own, realizing we've got to find Kit another home and me house hunting under what started as a whim and then became a bit more serious. As of late I've been looking into building my own home through Landmark Homes, a group that will allow me to design my own home from the ground up and then provide me the resources to help get it done. I filled out a prequalification form and likely didn't qualify for much of anything but eh, what can I say...so between that and school work (which alas I haven't worked on in this week) I've been busy.

All in all other than things feeling a little strange all is well. I'll likely be participating in Sunday Scribblings this weekend...maybe.

In other news I've so enjoyed the taste of fall in the air the crisp breeze and the nearly cold nights have been a great relief from the bold and brazen heat of August. I look forward to the time when Summer cedes its last grip and allows fall to sweep in.

Of Perceptions and Misperceptions

It seems that last week I was a little...overconcerned. This week has gone well and last weeks 'office leper' incident turned out to be a complete misunderstanding. Right now my only issue is a lack of motivation. I just don't want to do much of anything. The good news is the interactive writing board seems to be going well. Funny thing is I had a thought today that if Kota doesn't start making better use of his camera I might be stealing it off more often...something is compelling me to attempt to capture things on film...honestly speaking of film I'd be happier with a good 35mm which I've always prefered over digital but that's just me. It's not like I'd be able to develope them anyway which is 9/10ths of the draw to photography for me, oh well, I'll look into a good 35mm at some other point in time, you know like when I can afford to take a photo development course. Though I guess it couldn't hurt to get a cheap camera for between now and then.

Office Leper

Perhaps it's just me but I would swear I walk through the halls and people look at me differently, all because of however long this has been going on. I've talked with two of the three people that he stated knows but it's an office environment...who knows how many others know...or rather think they know and who knows how blown out of proportion things have gotten. Tis very lonely in printer land because it makes me wonder if the two I talked to are really as understanding as they seemed. I should dress warmly for work because who knows how long I'll FEEL like I'm working in the arctic.

Freedom of Speech Returned

Well, I spoke with the Lawyer today and she actually asked me to read her my posts and said that they were not what she had thought they were and as such I'm free! Welcome back to being viewable by any and all my dear blog!

2 Lessons Done

Well, I completed by non-traditional machining technologies lesson today as well as my first technical math class. I do not remember what I got in my non-traditional machining class, but in my math class I brought in an 80 which is pretty good for having some questions I just flat out didn't understand. I have made a pledge to myself to gain back all that ground I lost mathematically. I have always known that math was going to make things a little difficult; however; I WILL walk out of this with a degree...if it kills me. I will not back down and I will not give up. If I can beat a meth addiction, homelessness and now a several year nicotine addiction I can graduate from college damnit!

Challenge Accepted

Well, it seems my dear bear has put out an online random act of kindness challenge and the challenge is not only accepted but complete. I have a co-worker who only just started taking the bus recently because he only just now moved to day shift. Yes, this is the same person who took over the position I had been hoping to fill, but that's not the point. What I did was simple and it only cost $1.25 but it got him out to his sisters and that's what matters.

It does nothing to repay the $50 that one kind woman donated to my hopes to return to school but all things considered such kindness may never be repaid because it wasn't the monetary value of said kindness, but the fact that a beautiful baptist woman reached out to a known pagan without reproach, without preaching and with no strings attached to try to make my life better, despite our differences. At times I had to wonder if she knew I was pagan but I know better, she was too smart not to.

Nice to be wanted.

God's above it's nice to be wanted. Sure right now I'm doing the same old stuff over and over again, but it's good for me, I know when things pick up that I'll miss it. Besides she was so excited when she found out I thought my working here was pretty much permanent, she even suggested that during this downtime I get some school work done which is only funny because that was the plan. My characters are still all being pains in the butt and refusing to tell me even their stories. I'm hoping joining a site that I've been invited to will help. In all honesty though things are going well. On the 27th of this month we will have been here for 3 years, hard to believe.

I'm so looking forward to fall, its just kind of sad that I won't be downtown for it. There's something altogether different about downtown in non-tourist season that I love. Granted I even love downtown in the summer, it somehow makes summer more bearable. All in all life is going good and I plan to keep it that way which is why tonight I'm going to buckle down and get more school work done...which I will hopefully be reimbursed for.

1 Week Down!

Well, I have made it through a week and things are going wonderfully...I'm even thinking about writing again which is as of late amazing for me. Better yet I can look at the possibility of writing without thinking. 'I should go smoke and think about this' granted I do ALOT more pacing now it seems I can rarely sit still for long. I look forward to moving my desk into my room so that I can sit with my cup of coffee and other simple pleasures and just write.

The Journey Begins

The first step has been taken. The first milestone reached and yet I still find myself asking questions like. 'Well, what do non-smokers do on their breaks?' I have not touched a cigarrette in three days and my next milestone is 7 days then 2 weeks and then 1 month...etc. The going is slow an the action of quitting was actually rather surprising...we just sort of jumped into it. I'm getting a lot of support here at work for both this and my school work. I think it will help. I've got to find a suitable reward for making it 7 days and then two weeks etc. I'm thinking the two week marker (which comes saturday after next) will be to go somewhere or do something we don't often do...perhaps we'll find someway to make it to Saturday Market...or maybe I'll save that for 1 month since my credit card will be paid off then too. Wish me luck.